Core Vales - Integrity - Dignity
My Standards sit comfortably high while always laced with humility.
With so much clearing and cord cutting and skin shedding, I'm being granted a concise internal assessment where much of my truth has reappeared without any bit of disguise or taint. I know clearly what I want and desire at least to my core values.
I realized over the weekend how much my loving someone or something really manifested as me acting like I don't give 2 shits about myself and that just wasn't going to cut it. I started feeling shame bubble up from my stomach and recognized at once that this only happened because of recent decisions that I did out of love and hope for someone. Only to spend the following several days with a sensation of emptiness, and worry, and slight contempt.
I made exceptions for this person and scenario because I truly felt in this instance, it was different.
But that's just the thing; when you have integrity, dignity, and standards you've put in place, I believe you owe it to yourself to uphold those things relentlessly. You shouldn't compromise as I feel you'll ultimately attract what you don't desire.
This decision on my part is liberating as well as difficult. I pray for strength daily to do what needs to be done in the eyes of the bigger picture, not just my temporary relief.
I stand firm in what I value and I know what comes to me will reflect those things. I simply have no more room for anything else.
Maya
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